I spent a lovely half hour reading Country Living USA (I so love that I can easily buy that here, albeit a bit old by the time the price comes down - current international mags are $16!) . I marvelled at the surroundings and wondered just what has been wrong with me the last few months? Surely this is what I wanted? And it is but I guess getting here was harder than I thought it was at the time, if you see what I mean...

As I walked I mulled over the whole renting thing, and contrary to what I said yesterday, it is not the renting thing at all really, it is *this* house that I do not like, and to go even further than that it is cos I feel like I can't get out there, paint it to how I like it (i.e. anything other than the dreary, dreary AWFUL green on there now). And that is the answer I think, get outta here as soon as. However, saying this, reading the magazine did make me think that with more effort I could probably do more with it, but I don't quite have the inclination....because....it's not mine!